Update

So its been a while since I've wrote on here. I just got bogged down with alot of shit and just got lazy about updating it....I did horribly last quarter....although to some its not horrible, its just another round of discontent for me...Trying to get my grades up so I can get into the fucking business program but now I highly doubt it. Started to look back since the beginning of the year, I guess I do have a drinking problem. Every kickback (which usually turns into a party), I get unbelievably drunk and have no recollection of at least half of the previous night. And on top of that, my smoking had turned into full blown addiction.....but its starting decline though...somewhat. Haven't been able to go quit cold turkey.....My drinking habit has gone pretty bad....I may have hit rock bottom..but I highly doubt it....close friends stepped in and had a mini-intervention for me, confiscated my "mini-bar," and limit my intake whenever I am allowed to drink....their good people

school wise, i feel its the same shit over and over. i feel that i have no direction. i still procrastinate, even though i say that i wouldn't let it creep up and take over, yet it still does. i sometimes wonder if i was even cut out for college in first place...maybe i should just drop out and be a jarhead or grunt or something. at least then i'd know what the fuck i'm doing half the time....

Ugh..well this is it for now.