Tuesday, January 26, 2010

It's up there

This could be a really shitty week for me.

Saturday: Worst eating experience at Banana Bay ever. Vivid and surreal dreams, shivering all night while being cold and hot at the same time and possible developed a cold that night as well? Periodically through the night woke up to pee and spit out phlegm (which was a dark brown-yellow lugey with traces of blood in it). I thought I was literally going to be in shock and maybe die that night. Did not get any good sleep at all.
Sunday: Still felt like crap because of Banana Bay. Neck was tender and sore as hell because I kept sleeping in weird positions due to the vivid/surreal dreams. Tried doing homework but couldn't focus because of the headaches from yesterday. Some of the other people that ate their and myself were feeling pretty out of it that day. Couldn't really focus on doing homework, so I ended up getting half credit on it. Then insomnia set it for that night.
Monday: I didn't go to sleep until 3:30-ish am. Over slept as was late to dance, where we had to perform with our partners. I just grabbed my keys and longboarded as fast as I could to campus. Luckily, they had just gotten done with taking roll. Although I felt much better than Sunday, I was still somewhat out of it.

This morning while doing my usually routine, there was blood in my stool..as well on the toilet paper. And the tank water was somewhat pink....This is a very bad sign. No more drinking for a very long time for me....not to mention that I possibly have a cold (congested nose, chest, coughing, and sore throat) or flu like symptoms? That and I have 2 midterms to study for this week. I need to start taking better care of myself.

Oh joy...

Monday, January 25, 2010

Insomnia

I haven't been able to go to sleep yet. I laid in bed for about an hour and haven't drifted off. Been up an hour so far trying to go back to sleep. Listened to soft music and drank some warm milk. Neck hurts like hell because of last night's trippy ass sleep experience, which might have to do with what I ate at Banana Bay, cause some of had experienced the same thing. Probably not going to order that or not eat there for a long time.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Surreal

I just possibly had the worse sleeping experience to date. I swear that I was going to die. Had the chills, sweats, curled into a ball. I experience that trippy ass dream from only getting about 5 hours of sleep the previous day OR my food was undercooked at Banana Bay OR possible both. Went to bed with a headache and I still have a headache. & I still need do my homework. I hope I'm not getting sick :C

Thursday, January 21, 2010

On Rainy Days

Its hard to tell whats coming down my face: raindrops or tears.

I'm scared of being alone, I honestly am. Its my biggest fear. With everything that's been happening lately, the fearing is just inches away from being real. I'm trying my hardest to not think like that, but I'm reminded of it everyday.....

Monday, January 18, 2010

Constants are:

Disappointment and loneliness..........

my dysfunctional family just got even worse...

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Most likely

I will end up watching the following on my laptop: Youth In Revolt, Sherlock Holmes, The Fourth Kind, and probably some others....apparently I can't find anyone to watch it with..at least within a feasible radius.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Fast forward

Wow the last couple of days were just coming at me pretty fast. Thursday- I don't really remember much. Just remember that Hohyung made some pad see ew that was pretty good and we had alot to drink after, to the point were I got drunk. Friday- Didn't really do much, hanged out with Akhil and Emily! Got dinner and chilled at Akhil's place for a while. It was nice hanging out with them. Saturday- Hiked up to the C with Akhil, Emily and her friend and friend's friends. Extremely chill and fun. Got back when the sun was setting. Chowed down on some burgers, chilled at the pool and jacuzzi. After that, we played some drinking games at their place. Met some cool people. Awesome time besides the part where I just got emotional. Sunday- I knocked out at their place and slept there for the night. Went to Coco's for brunch and just watched tv all day with them.

This weekend was pretty fun....as fun as when I went out to get Kbbq with my old friends. I miss that being that fun and happy